Sometimes i wonder if I've always been an idiot about guys. I either never see it coming and all of a sudden what i thought was a friendship is wierd and awkward, or I get involved too fast and end up getting hurt. This thing with the boytoy is messing with my head it goes from hot, seeing each other everyday and looking forward to it, to cold with him disapearing off the face of the earth. Is it too much to ask to not bail on a date or two or three. To call if you can't for some reason make it. To not lie everytime you open your mouth?